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Monday, April 6, 2009

Should I still trust in you for once you screwed my life up?

I was chatting with a long time no contact friend, I indicate her as SN. I sensed that our bond would never ever be as the very first time that we got to know each other. We know each other since we were in our first year of university life. We are the gang of ‘fong fong dian dian’ meaning the group of insane! I had not much friend at that time, thus the group of insane is the group that I treasured most. We are from difference course. I was from Civil Engineering, SY from Cognitive Science, SN from Human Resource Development and CC from Chemistry! Though we are from different program our bond is tight. We have dinner together every night and even walked to Everise just to have a plate of nasi lemak or burger! We sing aloud along while on our way back, chatting from little bean things to great things.. there is no secret among us. We are the support to each other. No matter how hard our life in studies, obstacles seems flee from us when four of us were together.

Few months later, SN and CC went to Russia for their medical study. For they were offered courses that they did not applied. Weeks later SY left to leave outside together with another gang of friends of hers. Thus, I was left alone in the hostel. The bond was gone! SN and CC never contacted us. Me and SY, thought we were in the same campus, the great bond broken due to some minutes things. Although, we still come together often, there were full of secrets. We felt like strangers to each other! Few years past and eventually I graduated from the university with another gang of friends. I just wondered is there really true friends around? Friends after meeting another gang of friends the old one was left behind! I’m referring to myself as well..

The bond between me and SN broke due to some misunderstandings. She tried to protect me from being hurt by K thus making up stories so as to warn K. Thus love and trust between me and K broken due to some fake stories.. from this chat, I was heartbroken. But there is nothing that I could do. If love and trust between K and I do not worth trials. Better for it to come too its end. Today SN keep apologize to me.. I felt upset but I din show any expression besides caring for her life there. Things are over already, we are designated not to be together. Thus, there is no need of apologist.

I am happy with my life here. I still have gangs of friends here supporting me.. I’m looking forward to meeting the prince of my life. So SN cheers. I won’t care what you had done. I treasured that once we were great buddy!

Butterfly

A dream, a fairyland, a myth,
A place that everyone flew to,
Heavy price is paid,
With tears, sweat, youth and even life,
Everything seems so lovely,
Everyone seems so welcoming,
World, could never be that cruel,
But I wonder where I belong.
I was strayed, squirming for life,
Seeking for beam and hands,
I wonder where is it?
I wonder who would be there?
Wet eyes could never ever see again.
Two roads diverged in the wood,
Which one am I going to thread?
Is it this one or that one?
Who could affirm me the end?
I have dreams to achieve,
Fairyland to explore,
Myth to discover,
Should I conquered it alone,
Or with my Master I proclaim in bold,
I would abide in You, following You?
Unsightly caterpillar in the world,
A faulty step would loss its life,
Pray, the creator preserves the caterpillar,
Thought was ugly and creepy,
Caterpillar is the youth of butterfly,
This is its law of life.
Rocky path and wavy shore,
Patient, persistence and perspiration
Compassion, consistence with confidence,
All thorns and thistles helps,
To form the beauty of butterfly.

25-3-2009

by Yun

Friday, April 3, 2009

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Drizzling inwardly - Mixed mood

It was drizzling outside so do my heart. Each drop of rains seems like needle knitting through my heart.

I just don’t get the point why there was still people font of digging out stories to be told over and over again. I’m not sure what the intension. Maybe intend to remind me or help me to revise the sorrowful incidents so that it would remain in my long term memories?

I was half way thinking about my work when SN (a long lost friend) suddenly popped up saying ‘Hi’ to me… Having a long yet suffering chat… sigh..

I had be thinking should I post everywhere that I had been detached so that everyone on the world knows about it? Gosh…

Please be notified that I was not interested in knowing his ‘love’ life there. Please respect me as a girl. Don’t worry! I won’t commit suicide nor hurt myself or will I turn into a nun.

I’m still looking forward for ‘the Prince’ to show up in my life. I will tell the whole world once I met the Prince!

Thanks for all the concern and sorry for being rude in my words!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Being Tagged

Oh well, is time for me to pay all the 'tag debts'... Haha.. To Appy and Tini here is my precious purse and this is also the very first time I show off my so called lovely purse... Got some P&C so... not appropriate to show to all my readers yup..


1. Snap the picture of both inner and outer of your purse.

2. Introduce your purse brand, price & where you buy.

3. Take out whatever its inside your purse.

4. Tagged other 7 person.

5. Comment on your friend’s (who tagged you) purse.


1. Snap the picture of both inner and outer of your purse.

Errrmmm... I got two purses with me.. Coz I'm kinda always forgot to place my purse in the bag that I'm using.. so I put one in each bag that I always carry with me..

Purse 1
Purse 2


2. Introduce your purse brand, price & where you buy.

I'm not the kind of person after branded stuff.. By the way purse 1 is a birthday present from my elder sister so is FOC (free of change) and I'm not sure where she bought it.. one of the supermarkets in Bintulu I suppose! Purse 2 is a gift from Eunice so is kinda FOC as well and definitely I dunno where she bought it.. but definitely is one of the stalls in Korea...

3. Take out whatever its inside your purse.

Here they are, I arranged it properly before snapping the photos.. by the way, I din show my P&C stuffs.. other than P&C stuffs these are all the things appear in my purse..

Let me introduce one by one..
See I'm broke.. by the way I was always broke on weekend.. Leaving me RM 13 with some coins... Haiz.. who wanna feed me for the next week.. haha..
My darling.. I can't live without you..
All my ATM cards..

Prepaid photocopying magnetic card

All the business card.. Dunno why are they doing in my purse.. So never give me your business card.. else I will just stuff it in my purse and never ever bother to look at it... anyway, it seems that I'm business card collector as well.. Not bad..
These are the summer tea privilege card.. I'm their loyal customer.. The only place I visited whenever we have gathering..
All sorts of receipts...



Medical cards

4. Tagged other 5 person.
I tag ===>
Hannah =>
Ellex =>
Lynnx =>
Boaz =>
Jim =>


5. Comment on your friend’s (who tagged you) purse.

Tini => Korean moviesssss lover
Appy => Cheering gal..