最亲爱的你

 

范玮琪 作曲：方炯鑌
填詞：林建良

看你沉沉的睡去　忍不住緊抱著你
孩子般的無邪安寧　幸福就那麼篤定
突然想寫一封信　給我最親愛的你
看你不畏懼　一股傻勁　有時候多不忍心
夜裡無聲眼淚　驚天動地　我心疼你
為何倔強執迷　半夢半醒
你說再多打擊　也不放棄

也曾失望傷過心　你總相信　那片烏雲會散去
從沒變的孩子氣　常讓我生氣卻又著迷
就算冷言傷了你　卻不曾逃避
橫衝直撞　也不管受了委屈
我會　守護你那顆赤子的心　永遠不分離

突然想寫一封信　給我最親愛的你
看你不畏懼　一股傻勁　有時候多不忍心
夜裡無聲眼淚　驚天動地　我心疼你
為何倔強執迷　半夢半醒
你說再多打擊　也不放棄

也曾失望傷過心　你總相信　那片烏雲會散去
從沒變的孩子氣　常讓我生氣卻又著迷
就算冷言傷了你　卻不曾逃避
橫衝直撞　也不管受了委屈
我會　守護你那顆赤子的心　永遠不分離

夢和現實的差距　有的時候讓你感到灰心
世界無情　只要記得我在這裡陪你

我最最親愛的你　擦去淚滴　那片烏雲已散去
我們一起走下去　一起笑著看沿途風景
我最最親愛的你　最真的一句
永遠守著愛著你　帶著夢想前進
珍惜那最初炙熱的心　最親愛的你

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 第一次听到这首歌觉得好心暖。 简单的词却带来许多的感动。 我想很多人都和我一样吧。
大家都知到范范与黑人的故事，大家公认的甜蜜的伴侣。但是他们 恋爱11 年走来的故事还有很多的经历我们都不知道的。

我很欣赏他们两人所经营的爱情。
范范曾说： “只要主軸和價值觀一致就不會有大問題。而且我們從來沒想過要分開。” 这是何等的爱和信心。

我是一个在感情上特别理性的人，如果一段感情没有经过足够的考验，我会觉得很没安全感。 所以，我不急着要恋爱，可是一旦选择在一起了就没想要分开。

 给最亲爱的你，

林前 13：4-8上  愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒；愛是不自誇，不張狂，不作不合宜的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡，不因不義而歡樂，卻與真理同歡樂；凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。愛是永不敗落；

“ 突然想寫一封信　給我最親愛的你
看你不畏懼　一股傻勁　有時候多不忍心
夜裡無聲眼淚　驚天動地　我心疼你
為何倔強執迷　半夢半醒
你說再多打擊　也不放棄

也曾失望傷過心　你總相信　那片烏雲會散去
從沒變的孩子氣　常讓我生氣卻又著迷
就算冷言傷了你　卻不曾逃避
橫衝直撞　也不管受了委屈
我會　守護你那顆赤子的心　永遠不分離

夢和現實的差距　有的時候讓你感到灰心
世界無情　只要記得我在這裡陪你

我最最親愛的你　擦去淚滴　那片烏雲已散去
我們一起走下去　一起笑著看沿途風景
我最最親愛的你　最真的一句
永遠守著愛著你　帶著夢想前進
珍惜那最初炙熱的心　最親愛的你”

I wish I could be stronger

Smile seems to be a hard word for me now.

I could hardly smile.

I have always being optimistic.. 

wonder why the word "optimistic" leave me alone today.

The word that I used to encourage others - sound useless to me right now.

I am so tired.

Totally not in the mood..

Just like the ostrich who dig a hole and hiding and flooding the hole.

I could still sustain not until a friend of mine caring about me.. 

tears began to fill the frames of my eyes.

I wish I could hold it back. But it seems that I am holding it for too long. 

I am not tat strong after all..

Take a deep breath~ 

Yun can do it. :)

It's all my fault. Satisfied?

If there is anything urgent or you wanna ask anything - 

PLEASE DO NOT SMS or SKYPE or MSN me..

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I wonder if ~~

Not replying SMS is my fault.

Not replying SKYPE is my fault.

Not replying MSN is my fault.

You dunno how to make a call is it? :@

Have you ever thought that sometime it happens to you as well that you have ;

1. Not received any SMS from your friends who claimed that they have sent? Coz of that stupid DIGI, MAXIS or CELCOM pending or wat so ever.

2. Not received any message that you've type and sent by SKYPE or MSN??? Coz of poor line??? 

Please la, be gentleman.. Please ask a simple question "Do you receive my message or wat so ever???" before you start throwing your harsh words or make all sort of accusation. 

It might not sound nothing to you.. but it hurts me. OKAY.. DAMN IT. STUPID! @#$%^&*

Just a pour out

Sad chin ~ ~

Sien betul..

Just like the little doggie..

Trying out for 3 days yet I got nothing. 

@#$%^&*

Stupid. 

Sick

I hate getting sick~ 

GETTING SICK!

It was last week after sending a friend of mine going to clinic coz of flu. Well~ I owaz thought I am strong enough to battle the little virus.. who knows I was defeated once again~  =.=

This time - nose allergy causing inflammation at nostrils and throat

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FLU 

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FEVER 

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GASTRIC ~

see.. si beh cham~ 

The virus is really geng~ 

Now~ the immune system is fighting hard to get rid of the culprits.

To all the readers out there~ Remember to take good care~ Dun get sick as Chinese New Year is approaching~ ^^

Simply a Post

Yun's Feeling in this few days!

Fade UP!

Disappointed! 

Hard to Forgive!

Tired!

Sienz!

si beh tu lang (Hokkien).

Too STUPID! 

Too KIND!

Too GENEROUS! 

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LOVE TOO LITTLE~~

Hard to Explain

Just a pouring section today. Yun felt disappointed for those who are so 'understanding'. Sometime, Yun is really curious is there anyone tat really care for me? It seems none outwardly but let me tell you there are a lot of people 'caring' for me, in the sense that they like to gossip and talk something behind me that they dun even know what the hell is going on with Yun.. I really wonder why? Yun is sick of all of you. Dun do that again.. Dun ever tell me again something like this "tat someone tell you something and you come and ask me that something that you already presume that it's like tat" I'm not going to entertain anymore! Wasting my time and energy to listen and explain to you.

Yun had submitted the first draft of the complete thesis to my supervisor last week to be checked. Gossips and talkings start there.. Some said;

Yun had completed her studies.

Yun is very free now.

Yun had nothing to do.. so good.

Spent more time with the younger one then.

Remember to accompany them.

Remember to read bible together with them.

Remember this and Remember that!
What the heck!!
I think I should treat it as NONE OF MY BUSINESS I suppose~


Well~~ guys.. let me make myself clear!

Yun had just submitted Yun's first draft of thesis to be marked by supervisor!

It means;

1. Thesis not yet finalized.

2. For all of your informations, Boss hold my thesis! Not even reading a word!

3. Thesis need to be marked by supervisor, meetings need to be carried out among 2 of my supervisors to varify and marked my work.

4. After marking, Yun need to do all the corrections. Whether to add more into the thesis still remain a question mark '?'.

5. After the corrections, need to resubmit to supervisors a complete set for final checking.

6. Have to gone through faculty meeting. If they are OK with the thesis then arranged for internal viva voca to be carried out. If they are NOT OK with the thesis corrections need to be carried out again! Until they said OK!

7. Only by then, Yun will be waiting for external viva voca.

at the moment Yun is working as well not sleeping everyday;

1. Study on graphical user interface (GUI).

2. Working on the graphical user interface (GUI) using MatLAB for the grant project.

3. Writing final report for the grant project to the MOHE.

4. Preparing journal papers for BOSS as a requirement to graduate.

Let me plead you to listen to me; doing and working on a new things without guidance is extremely tedious. I'm not a genieus. Yun had to spent lots of time in order to understand it prior to creating the GUI and also database! Yun just have 2 more months to do it!


Anyway, all things are coming to an END soon. What Yun need to do is learnt the lesson of endurance and be patience, taking the grace of God in this few weeks time.

More updates when Yun is at Yun's hometown.

Appreciations for those who lend me a shoulder

Time really flee. Day by day it passed as if I had done nothing beneficial to the world nor to myself. I was wasting my life and energy persistently seeking and digging for clues to solve problems after problems.. I tend to give up but thanks to all my friends and saints keep on encouraging me in this process.. No one could help in my study because none of them had a slight idea for what I was doing~~ Pity me~~

I was trying out different methods to solve the problems that I faced in my study recently and few minutes ago..

I found it~~

I FOUND IT!!!

I WANNA SHOUT TO THE WORLD~~

I FOUND IT!!!

Nothing could be happier than that! I just wanna share my Happiness to all my readers, to my family members, to those who had encouraged me always no matter how much murmurings their ears had to bear and to those who reminded and cooked to fill my tummy whenever I forgotten and most importantly to those who keep me in their prayers. I love you all.. ^^

Well, the process was not easy. Those simple problems (now I could use the word simple) cost me more than 5 months to solve it. Tonight I had solved all the mysteries. Although the ways are found, I still have few kilometers to tread before heading towards the finishing line. I am physically exhausted but whenever I listen to this song 還有我 I regained my strength to move on.

Adult Business

Just feel like uttering today.. Lots of things that I could not understand. Why there are such a things like that?
First; I thought that I could lead my life without others to worry bout me; I failed.
Second; I thought that I am matured enough to comprehend all the situations around me; I'm not.
Third; I thought that I'm the big gal that my family members could trust on and lean to; I'm neither indeed.
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When everyone seems to keep everything away from me (with their good intentions - that I would not get distracted or worried by what happened and it's so called 'adults matter')
But~~ Let me tell you. I'm willing to bear with you all!!! I'm an adult as well~~

My mum got very sick - everyone keep it as secret to me.. Till lately when I called my eldest sister and accidentally she slip the words..
My brother got hospitalized due to bacteria infections in the blood.. they keep it as secret to me as well~~
This is serious case.. I can't help but at least I can pray for them..

Haiz... Well~~ If this is the case; then go on keep everything as secret to me.

I'm sad and felt helpless.

But I still love you all..

What a day?

Today, the last day of September was just an extremely ridiculous day for me. It was the very first time I drove till I cried. I felt so tired, hopeless and sad. Things were totally out of my hand, out of my plan and out of my sense.. If I knew that it was such a troublesome stuffs I would rather ignore about the conference.

Not going to describe in details.. Just wanna share the conversations between me and a USM staff. I believe no matter where I go, if still within M******* all are still the same.. Now I'm praising UNIMAS postgrad staffs.. You are extremely good~ Keep it up..


Below are my conversation with i name her Z which cost me RM 42.60.

Me : Hello, Good morning. USM Civil Engineering Department is it?
P : Yes. May I help you.
Me : I have some questions regarding the payment for AWAM 09, may I know who can help me..
P : Ermm... AWAM 09.. wait ah...

*Put on Hold...
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I heard someone screaming behind the phone.. AWAM lagik tu.. satu lagi.. cepat lah..
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Waiting..
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Still waiting...
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P : Hello, you wait for a while I put you to the person in charge..
Me : Ok, thanks.
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Wait patiently..
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Still waiting....
P : The person in charge is not in now, I pass you to another person who might know something about it..
Me : Ok. Thanks.
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Am waiting.
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Z : Hello, what can I help you.
Me : I would like to ask about the payment for conference..
Z : By the way, what's your name?
Me : I am Lau S.H.
Z : Oh...
Me : I went to RHB Bank just now intend to bank in the cheque to your company but the staff asked me for your account number.
Z : Oh.. you pay by CASH or by CHEQUE?
Me : I'm paying by CHEQUE..
Z : Ok.. wat's ur hp number? I will sent to you the acocunt number. But you have to bear in mind that you need to fax to us the receipt to clarify that you've paid to the company..
Me : 1234567890
Z : 1234567890
Me : Ya.. tat's right. Thanks for the information.

Walking to RHB Bank with stiching pain stomach.

Me : Hello, noon, I wanna bank in this cheque and this is the bank account!
Bank staff : Which bank is it?
Me : CIMB..
Bank staff : Ooo.. you can't bank in here. You have to bank in at CIBM.
Me : Is it? But last time can wat..
Bank staff : We can't do it now..
Me : Oic. Tat means I have to bank in at CIMB..
Bank staff : Ya.. you are right..

Walking away with extremely 'beh song' mood..
Calling my friend to borrow her car..

Departing at 2:15pm to fetch another friend at school.. I get lost coz I had never being there.. round and round I go.. PISSED OFF.. coz she din answer my phone callsssssssssssss!!! Thinking of just leaving her alone there.. luckily she called back else I'm really gonna leave her alone waiting there..

Found her school..
Here I go heading to CIMB at 3:00pm sharp... Damn.. it was jammed! Can you imagine 3pm on Wednesday noon traffic jam getting on??? Well~~ There were 2 cases of car accidents on the same stretch of road.. I'm so soi~~ right...

Reaching CIMB.. Hurried in as there were a lot of people.. *Is end of the month.. * waiting patiently... and ~~ It's my turn...

Me : Noon, I wanna bank in this cheque..
Bank staff : You have to use automatic cheque processing machine..
Me : Yakah.. but i need to get the official receipt for the organisation..
Bank staff : Sorry, I can't help.. we dun have this service long time d..
Me : O.O ok.. thanks anyway..

GETTING REALLY PISSED OFF...

Me : What the hell is going on??? Can't bank in.. SHIT..
Grace : What should you do now???
Me : I oso dunno. Maybe I'll try to call tat stupid USM again..

Ringing...
Speaking in really unfriendly tone
Me : USM kah?
Q : Ya. Civil department here.
Me : I have some questions regarding the payment for the conference. Who can I refer to?
Q : Well, you can refer to me..
Me : Dis morning one of your staff inform me that I need to bank in the cheque at CIMB.. But now I'm at the bank. They informed me that they do not have official receipt for me coz now they are using electronic cheque processing method. Can you tell me what should I do since the due date is today?
Q : Like this is it?.. You hold on.. I pass to the person in charge..

*WHAT THE HELL*

Z : Hello.
Me : Hello, I'm Lau S.H.
Z : Oh, Lau. What's your problems now?
Me : *repeating the whole thing again* bla bla bla..
Z : Ooooo.. yakah.. Sorry Lau.. I miss heard your speech.. I thought you said is CASH!!! Tat's why I give you the account number...
Me : WHAT??? I said CHEQUE!!!!!!
Z : Like this.. I give you tolerance you mail to me using pos laju..
Me : ....
Z : You post it tml ya..
Me : Ok. Bye.. @#$%^&*@#$%^&*

I look at Grace.. Tears nearly fall out from the frame of my eyes.. but I hold it..

My stomach is drooling...

Drove off to have my lunch at 4pm!!! THANKS the staffs for such a good treat...

What a day!!! Now I am totally knackered~~

What a day?

I'm very sienz now.. Mixture of all moods.

A bit sad,
A bit disappointed,
A bit frustrated,
A bit pissed off,
A bit relaxed,
A bit worried,
A bit stressed,
a bit..
a bit..

a bit INSANE at the moment...

Just have bout 2 hours meeting with my boss regarding all the ding ding dong dong for conference in October.. Problems solved eventually, because today is the due date for all things.. I'm lucky isn't it???

I felt grateful to my boss, I'm so thankful that she turn up today.. helping me to sign all the documents and here they go~~ to the RIMC table.. again.. Phew~~~

Then, talking about my progress... bla bla bla and bla bla bla~~~
Boss : Tat's good~ well, Lau, I had a plan you know.. I want you to do "this" and do "that".. after the raya, you come to see me again.. I wanna have a discussion with you see how are we able to do more and better things here.. you can do better..

Me : *KNS* HUH!!! O.O... the time is limited.. I'm not able to do so many things in dis few months since I wanna grad next year.. besides I just plan to get a master degree not a PhD degree~

Boss : Is not good enough to have tat only.. I think it will be better if you do it..

Me : I will think over it and plan first..


If I do it means no more graduation next year.. =.= ,
If I din do means that she'll hold back my thesis.. no graduation oso.. =.=

Besides, Boss will give birth to a baby soon.. delivery date will be on November!!!

TELL ME~~~

What should I do then??? HAIZ.. =.=

A shoulder to lean and cry??? A place to vent the anger??? Rejoicing as nothing had occured??? Telling me to be remained in the Spirit now???
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HAIZ...


It seems tat.. In my mind, there is nothing else besides getting graduated and flew away from ******

What the heck..

I FELT DOWN and HELPLESS NOW!!!

Mood

Yun came across a very 'interesting' matter that happened on the people around me. Guess what? Everybody was playing hide and seek!!! without any hint where they were going! No matter what had happened there were something that Yun would like to pen down towards these people..

Every one have their own difficulties and situations that no one could understand nor bear. I dun understand nor could I bear yours problems. Therefore I make sure that I dun create any ass for other people to clean it up..


These are just my feelings..


wanna have a shout!!!

At those people..




YOU ARE DAMN SELFISH!!!@#$%^&*


Sigh...

Lose in a competition

What type of mood am I suppose to have today? I'm not sure... Haiz... Anyone wanna comfort and pampered me a bit???

The very first things I check when I got online are my mailsss.. checking my emails~~.. Well, today there is a bad bad news for Yun.. Share wif my readers one news tat ruin my whole day mood.. Sigh~~~

I had wrote a paper for competition last April.. and tata.. the result was released yesterday night 7:02pm. I was very excited when I saw the subject of the mail.. but once I opened it.. it turned me down.. falling from the heaven down to the hell~~~
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phewww....
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bom!!!

This was portion of the mail.. so well and politely written in such a way that it hurt little ~

"The Panel of Judges has finished the final judgement on all the shortlisted papers. We regret to inform you that your paper has not been selected for the Award. The Judges would like to express their sincere gratitude on your support to this Award. It is never an easy task for the Judges to select the winning papers amongst those high quality submissions. This year, a total of three papers have been awarded the prizes..."

See~~~ what should be my reactions!!! =.=
I'm sad.. of course!!!
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unhappy~~
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haiz...

Those who won the award are those wif the big title, Dr, Assoc Prof, Prof..
What to do.. Yun's not tat experienced yet...

Anyway~~ Yun should admit that they are really experienced and their work are really good, marvellous~~..
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Yun's work is not up to tat standard yet :) ...
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BTW~~
Yun will not be discouraged..
Yun will try again next year..

*Thanks to Yun's supervisors.. Their encouragements helps..
Though the impacts of losing still there..
Emotional imbalance~~
well~well~ I suppose ladies owaz felt tat after losing..

MOoooDyyy

Yun had been very moody recently..

Too emotional!!!

What had happened???

What the hell is going on with YUN!!!

Bad News

All things work together for me to suffer a little bit longer~ This is the sentence that I would utter. Just informed dad the I will be going back home tomorrow morning using bus and most probably will reach in the evening. Who knows dad said dun come back at this moment!!! Below was the conversation.

Me: Dad, I wanna go back home..

Dad: When u wanna come back? Very tired is it?

Me: Dying soon…

Dad: Why?

Me: Nothing.. just extremely tired at this moment..

Dad: Ooo.. but I prefer u not coming back at this moment..

Me: WHY ??? ~~~

Dad: Got few cases of A H1N1 in Bintulu.. Some kids are quarantine. U know ur immune system not tat good.. I dun wan u to get it later..

Me: Ha~~ Haiya.. why at this moment got H1N1 de? *Voice~~ trembling + eyes filled with tears..

Dad: How is ur research?

Me: … test set up failed again~~

Dad: Never mind.. Dun stress up.. u still hv some time to figure it out..

Me: No time d.. I wanna grad next year and I dun like here anymore…

Dad: Be positive ~ ~ I strongly believe tat you can make it.. Others I dunno but I know you can de..

Me: But now I’m very tired d.. I loss weight again~~ Extremely fatigue..

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Dad: Be patience.. But.. U still cannot come back home at this moment.. wait till the virus clear first.. try to catch up some movies and go out with friends to relax a bit…

Me: Go clubbing can ah???

Dad: Clubbing??? If you go with bunch of friends then can.. but not advisable.. dun go tat kind of place..

Me: Nola.. I kidding oni…
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Dad: K la.. Remember dun come back at this moment ah.. U come back later when the virus gone..

Me: Ooo…
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HAIZ~~~

Simply a post..

Turning the headphone volume to the max, turn my handphones into silent mode, sign in facebook, blogging.. I'm sad and disappointed at the moment..

Research lab work really draw me knackered. Start questioning myself again why I choose this stupid school for my research..

IF~~ IF~~ by the way, IF~ there is IF... I would not be who I am now..

This is the 3rd improvement of the lab instruments to carry out my lab work.. yet all things come out to be null.. Total of 48 + 32 + 36 +48 + 56 + 63 + 75 + 91 + 104 + 63 + 108 = ???.. count for me how many times I failed my lab work analysis... Felt like digging myself a hole, hide inside and flooding the small hole.. T.T

This is the conversation between Mr Chiew (a supplier), Nur Adha (NA) *just realised tat Nur Adha got a NA for his initial name.. no wonder always Not Available*and Me..

Day 1

Me: NA, mana itu data logger.. I mau guna hari ini..

NA: Ok.. Amoi.. tak payah tergesa-gesa sangat.. relax...

Me: *with u as my technician how can relax one.. Tak boleh la.. Boss nak tengok setup dah dis week..

NA: APA.. buat apa boss mau tengok?

Me: Coz boss kata big big boss mau adapt method ini ke dalam research dia..

NA: Ooo.. tak apa.. saya pasang skarang...
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*Only by using the name of boss would he do his work.. haiz....*
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NA: Amoi, saya honest ni.. saya tak tau macam mana guna data logger ni..

Me: APA??? Last time u kata u tau.. senang saja!!!

NA: Itu dulu...

Me: *what the heck!*

NA: You try sendiri dulu.. nanti saya suruh kawan datang ajar you..

Me: =.=
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Me: NA, saya tak tau macam mana ni.. kenak semua value keluar 999999??? Tak patut...

NA: Errrmm.. Amoi saya tak tau la... U try lagi la..

Me: Huh!!! ok...
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*Clock strike 5:07pm...

NA: Amoi, sudah dapatkah???

Me: Belum.. masih semua value 999999.. Tak apalah saya pergi tanya online dulu tengok apa problem dia..

NA: Amoi, nanti u dapat caranya.. ajar saya ah..

Me: =.=

NA: Oh ya.. data lab work kamu boleh bagi saya satu copy juak???

Me: Kenak kau mau satu copy juak?

NA: Saya mau belajar...

Me: Ooooo... Tapi u tau macam mana analysis dia???

NA: Tak tau oh.. u ajar saya lah!!!

Me: =.= =.= |||||

Itu research saya lah.. macam mana saya mau copy bagi kamu semua data dan analysis itu..???

NA: Yakah.. tak apalah.. u bagi saja saya data yang kamu dapat tu...

Me: Ok...

Day 2 & 3

*NA forgot to open the lab for me coz he would be having 2 dyas seminar.. and guess.. I was just like 'Along' calling him and ordered him to come to opened the lab for me!!! I waited for him for 1 hour and 25 minutes before he came to open the lab..
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The 2nd day he came early to open the lab work me... *grin.. :)
I suppose when I'm really angry.. my outlook would really scare people..

(Have a quiet day doing lab work)

Day 3

Me: *happily waddling myself to the lab
Morning NA, bolehkah U tolong pasangkan cell load itu hari ini???

NA: *making funny face as I were d intruder disturbing his wonderful time watching movie there
Nanti ah amoi... Tunggu kejap...

Me: *well his tunggu kejap is 30 min I suppose..

OKAY...

Going to the location where I placed all the instruments.. start up computer and start reading the data that I'd gotten the day before to see the flow of the displacement data...
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NA coming with a load cell in his hand.. and bringing Mr Chiew as well..
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NA: Amoi ah.. macam mana install ini???
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Me: Huh!!! *&%*&^$^%$(*& ..
U kata last time senang saja install.. macam mana saya tau macam mana install??? First time saya guna ni..

NA: Ahduh.. amoi.. saya pun tak tau macam mana install la...
** wat the heck!!! %&^%&*^$
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Chiew: O.O ic.. I think let me try..

Me: Ok.. thanks...
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Chiew: Tak pernahkah ada orang guna benda ni?

NA: I pun tak tau...

Me: *in mind* wat u know???
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Chiew: U probably might need another 2 connectors to connect the cell load to the UTF machine and your loading fixtures..

NA: Yaya..

Me: Ok.. but..

NA: Yaya.. I pun rasa macam tu.. u need connectors..

Me: ^*#@*^%* *

Chiew: By the way, I wonder why you need so high capacity cell load???

Me: EXPLAINING....
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Chiew: Oooo... Giving Opinions...
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NA: Yaya.. saya pun rasa macam tu... *Gosh.. really feeling throwing him out of the window..

Chiew: I dun think there is such equipment in UNIMAS lab.. coz we supply all the lab de equipments for civil lab... Mayb you should try Swinburne.. we got supply them one tat might suit your needs..

NA: Betul juak... Amoi.. Boleh pergi sana oh..
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Me: Now wat time d.. June d.. just wanna change to other university for lab.. NO TIME le.. I wanna grad in time!!!
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Chiew: As long as you try..

Me: Ok.. thanks ya for your helps..

Chiew: Is ok.. we all know dis university de system.. all the best to you oh..

Me: Thanks.. :)
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I stop all the lab work and go back to postgrad room.. start with all the nuisance work...

Just crapping

I had been feeling depressed in this few days. I thought that I had overcome all these indeed I was still walking in the darkness. I dunno how and what should I do nor who could I shared the overbearing problems. In short, I am knackered!

I still have another 4 days before my ‘report’ due, yet I could not start my lab work just because of the incomplete set of lab apparatus. The only reason they give me is to wait because of the delay from the supplier. I had thought of using my own wicked way to urge the technicians but in the end I didn’t do that just because I do not want them to get into troubles. I had tried other alternatives of replacing the important components with something else. I spent whole night to come out with something which I could think of, cheap and conservative method yet I got this response: “Amoi, ini susah oh…, u tunggu sajalah u punya connection cap itu, nanti itu white elephant rosak macam mana? …” I ward off with thanks. I dunno how I should react…

I’m going to hate the month of May. This is the month that I had to bear other people’s problems and burden. Phone calls, sms and e-mails… Could I say ‘No’ without hurting anyone? That’s why I’m gonna believe one saying that ‘The older you grow, the heavier the responsibility that you had to bear.” I had never believed in such a saying until I myself was in the situations. Now, I realized a lot of things that others suffered before… a friend of mine once told me that “Human have to live by the situations not the other way round”. I used to laugh at him and teased him to be more optimistic… well, now I realized why he said so…

End of this month I had to left for Tronoh and KL for about a week or two for an important (a must go) trip. If I were to choose, I choose not to go… but the responsibility is there. I began to worry about the time and the energy that I have. This is because I thought that the travelling starts only in August. Man proposed, God disposed.. my travelling have to start end of this months.. haiz… a long sigh……….. lab work stuck, programming stuck, brain stuck… everything stuck… what a suck?

By the way, I have to leave my studies for a while. I really hope I could catch up with it. Besides, I had been wondering if I was buried with problems of my studies, who are going to help me??? Praying hard and hoping for aids from above ba I suppose!!! …

Gotta stop crapping and start working...

An encouragement for myself... Cheer up Yun! ^-^

A date with my youngest uncle

I received a call from my uncle on Tuesday which sound weird for me.. my uncle call me??!! His brain got haywire? (coz my uncle never called me since I was in Kuching + he dun even know my phone!) get my point! Erm.. this time my wonderful uncle wanna treat me a dinner.. (Sweat…) dinner for some purposes!!! Just always hope that my instinct is wrong.. Unluckily it always turn up to be true.. (for this uncle only la)

Let me describe a bit about my uncle. He’s in his late thirties, married and father of two kids yet he is so font of bullying me.. not beating me of course but teasing me most of the time causing me to blush in red.. He used to be the one bullying me always whenever I went to my grandpa’s house..

Well, this time my great uncle din tease me.. He’s kinda very serious.. you know like a father speaking to a daughter.. bukan main serious.. first time in my life seeing him that serious. Back to the point.. I was nearly fainted when he asked me some questions.. I bet you will know what’s his intentions when asking sorts of questions..

Beat around the bush… ting ting dong dong…

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Well, your mom said that you are in d middle of your twenties oled… now taking master is it? what’s you plan after this? Wanna study again ha?... (Okay.. start with my mom… again…)

You not young liaw ah.. have to think about your future… (UNCLE… )

I dun wanna see you to be ‘lao gu po’… (Grrrrr…)

You not bad wa… I dun believe u din meet anyone that suit your taste yet.. (OMG… mom sending detective…)

I got a few friends dunno you interested or not??? (UNCLE… Pls la… now what age d…)

See.. your cousins nearly all get married oled.. when is your turn… (OMG…)

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These are the main big questions that he thrown to me… leaving me speechless, blush in red yet my sis giggling away… (Hopeless de sister…)

I bet you will know what’s my uncle’s intentions oled.. haiz… what to do… caring uncle.

Oh well.. Is it that I'm 'aged' d? I'm still young I suppose... Furthermore, I had not been thinking bout this matter ever since I'd broke off with him...

Maybe it is the time d.. But this time I will start with prayer...


Thanks la.. uncle..

Messy Mood

I had been thinking too much this few days. I slept late not because of my project. Messy mind kept me awake. I don't understand, I don't get the point and sorry I don't want to understand... Please... I'm begging you... I still have a long way to finish my studies..

Even now, I don't know how to express it in my blog. Most of the time I could easily express my feelings here.. but for this time.. I found no word to describe..
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